Sunday, June 21, 2009

MoHo NoMo?

Here I am, finally telling my story on a broad--though anonymous--scale. For about the last year I've read and kept up with a few "MoHo" blogs (creepy...I know) and thank many of you for sharing your stories!

I will be posting about my life and experiences with same-sex attraction up to now. In a nutshell, I grew up a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and knew from a very early age that I was attracted to men. I kept this a secret until I was pretty much forced to admit it near the end of high school. I went through a serious introspection of myself--resulting in my choices to build my testimony of the restored gospel, serve as a missionary for two years, and marry the love of my life.

In short, I have found that my homosexuality has been declining and that my heterosexuality is filling in the gap! Is this possible? Others have said I'm just deceiving myself and am living a lie. This could not be further from the truth. I cringe when I hear people say that those who are "gay" will never truly be happy unless they follow these same-sex attractions. For me, it has been the exact opposite.

I believe my path is leading me to the most fulfilling life I could ever imagine. I believe this perception comes from my religious beliefs as well as inherent human nature. If I had believed I was destined to immutable homosexuality, I would have been (and still would be) completely miserable. Luckily, I have found that not to be the case, and look forward to continuing on this path. It is fitting that today is Father's Day, because I look forward with anticipation to be a loving and caring father and husband.

Here is my story...