Sunday, August 30, 2009

August

August was good. It looks like I'm writing at a rate of about one post per month, so I figure I better update!

This summer has flown by faster than I'd hoped, but it has been an eventful and a successful summer. My wife and I had a bumpy start to the summer, but have seen the hand of the Lord bless us through our trials. We both found amazing jobs to carry us through until we leave Provo. We moved into a nice apartment (extremely better than our last one) for a good price. We've managed to stay out of debt through all of the transition and schooling over the past 6 years, which has been a huge blessing and testimony of tithing to me and my wife. One of the best things was watching my wife walk across the stage at her graduation. August was good.

August was also successful as far as handling homosexuality. I feel less and less inclined toward former temptations, and I love my wife more and more each day. It's true! I feel like my outlook on this situation is more positive. A few months ago I started studying a book I found at the library called Resolving Homosexual Problems: A Guide for LDS Men by Jason Park.

It's kind of old (1997), but its message to those with unwanted same-sex attraction or behavioral habits has really helped me and how I control the situation. As I continue to reread and study it, I plan on writing my thoughts and feelings on this blog. My life to this point has been filled with my fair share of suppression, guilt, and shame for not being able to conquer this issue by willpower alone. By reading this, I've come to learn and start the process of resolving some of the inner problems that I've faced since I was very young by being open with others and building my self confidence. There is also a companion volume for spouses/parents/friends/etc. that my wife is reading. I also suggested it to my parents, so that they can better understand me and help support me.

I look forward to the new challenges that are ahead as school starts this week!